Where Have U/I Been???

Well, I haven't been posting because nothing new is going on.  I am still on my eating binge and eating everything in site.  I have not lost any weight in the last two weeks, I am holding steady at 205 lbs.  :-(

I have to admit that I haven't been trying to lose weight, but I haven't tried because I just haven't been motivated.  I mean, I WANT to lose weight, but it just isn't happening.  I don't know what I am going to do to kick this unmotivational spell that is going on in my life.

The same thing with my Mary Kay business.  It is dead in the water, and I am thinking about getting out of it because I am just not doing well.  People keep cancelling appointments, or saying they are going to purchase items then that doesn't happen.

I enjoyed the parties that I have had, but I am putting more time and effort into the Mary Kay then I am getting money in return.  Can't have that happening!

Today is Lily's 5th birthday!  So it is a good day!  She got to go to Mr. Gatti's and the park, so she is a happy camper.  Tomorrow is her birthday party, and I am hoping it turns out to be a blast for her, which I am sure that it will.

Overeating....

That is how I feel!  I have done NOTHING BUT EAT and EAT all week long!  All I can say is, I better enjoy it cause I am going to start holding myself accountable again next week.

My "fat pants" are tight, so something is wrong with this picture.  If they get too tight,  I don't have any clothes to wear.  How pathetic am I?  I seriously need to find some motivation and get back on track.

Little Lily has been wanting to walk, and I have been putting her off.  No more!  When she wants to walk from now on, we are going to walk.  If a 4 year old can do it, then so can I!

I have a trip into Sonny's this weekend with my cousin, then my lifestyle change will go into effect.  If only I could get the Hubster to start this journey with me....  It would make things alot easier.  But I know that you have to depend on yourself, you can't let others determine how you live your life.

Keep me in your prayers, and keep those fingers crossed that I can do this!

Ta-ta for now.............

Bacon candy...

I am sure is as unhealthy as it sounds!  It is dates wrapped in bacon, then baked until golden brown and YUMMY!  I just had my feel of them.  Boy were they good!

I weighed myself this morning, and I weighed 204 lbs.  The most that I have officially weighed in my life.  SO I am going to live it up this week, and next week I am going to start back on WW's and lose this damn weight.

I am sure that you are probably tried of hearing me whine about it, and do nothing to control it.  Well, I am going to start controlling it.  I look like I am pregnant.  And if someone asks me if I am, I think I will punch them in the face!

Here's to living up the week......

Who gets a lawnmower stuck

I do!  It was seriously an accident.  Of course it would be an accident, but I feel like a dumbass.  I was mowing under the swingset, and put is in reverse, but it keep going forward and got stuck under the swingset.  I mean REALLY STUCK!  Then I had to come in and tell the hubster.  So he is out there now trying to get it unstuck.  I hope he can.  Man, it was really stuck!

Still not doing any better on my weight loss.  I am just not motivated.  I mean, I WANT to lose weight, but I just can't stay away from food.  I just enjoy eating way too much.

I haven't been to WW in two weeks cause I know that I haven't lost any weight. I am such a big wuss.  I should just go and weigh in.  See the damage and maybe that would motivate me.

I had a Mary Kay get together yesterday that went pretty well.  I have another one tomorrow night, and hopefully it will go good.  Wish me luck on my Mary Kay adventures...

Well, going to go grab some fruit for breakfast, later gater................

Only Thursday

Today has felt like Friday!  ALL DAY I have thought that it was Friday, so tomorrow is going to fell like forever when I go to work.  I am hoping not since I am taking off at 12:30 though.  :-)

I had Mexican for dinner, it was yummy.  I am getting fatter than a tick, so I am going to HAVE TO get serious about this weight loss thing and start to lose weight.  I hate feeling this way.  My "fat pants" are tight, NOT a good sign.

I am going to try to start being good and not eating all the jun food that I have been eating.  I have probably had a dozen chocolate bars the last 2 weeks.  Not good.  Pepsi out the wazoo. Not good.  Just food that I shouldn't be eating all around.

Why oh why does weight loss have to be so hard?

Please send up a prayer for me that I can get this beast under control and get myself healthy!

Talk to you guys later.......

Mark Kay Party...

I had my first Mary Kay Party today!  Thank you Debbie, Debbie, Lisa, and Martha.  I think that it went pretty well.  It was my FIRST one after all.

The ladies seemed to have a good time, so that's all that matters.  I was nervous on what to say about the product, because I am not 100% familiar with the products yet, but I will get there.  I just need to practice, practice, practice on the products until I get them down.

Food wise, I am still eating everything in front of me.  No changes there.

Walking-isn't much better.  I need to get up over that mile mark and start aiming for 2-3 miles.

I just don't feel motivated.  Being fat just isn't motivation enough I guess.  :-(

It is thundering here now, so we are getting ready for some nasty weather.  We were hoping that it would be nice for when Lindsey and Lucian came over so that the kiddos could swim.  Maybe next time...

Well, gotta run.  Going to have my second Mary Kay party at 6:00 and I need to get prepared!  Wish me luck!   I hope this Mary Kay adventure works out for me!

Laters gaters...................

Losing the battle. :-(

I think that I am losing this weight lose battle.  My weight loss has been non-existent, and I can't seem to stop eating everything that is put in front of me.  I am really discouraged right now, and need some words of encouragement.

I think that I am going to pray that God give me the strength to lose this weight and become healthy for my babies and my husband, cause doing it alone is getting me no where.  :-(

My blog has been MIA because there has been nothing to post except for disappointments.

I went to Weight Watchers last week and had gained back the 3 lbs that I lost the weeks before.  Not good.  I don't think that I am going to go to WW this week, there is no point.

I am just a big, fat failure.