Evil Dead...

Today was the first time EVER that I have been to a movie by myself.  I went to the theater and watched Evil Dead all by myself   There was a couple of times that it made me jump.  All in all, it was a pretty good movie.  I would have changed the ending a little, I wanted the brother to survive, but it is what it is.

Eating was off the charts today.  Didn't have any juice.  And the juicer is not working  :-(   Hubster tried to fix it, but it has gone kaput.  I am not sure if we are going to by a new one, or start back on Weight Watchers.  Whatever we do, I hope that we do it soon.

I actually got to where I enjoyed drinking the juice.  It seemed to make me feel less bloated, and less thirsty  But oh well, what can you do with a broken machine?  We also have a fridge full of fruits and veggies, so we are going to have to figure out something.

I didn't go walking again today.  My sister and one of my friends both went to the track to walk, but I was gone to Somerset to the movies.  Maybe tomorrow.  I do have my wellness plan tomorrow, so I may go to the track and walk.  I need to try to get the three miles in.  Don't think that it is going to happen, but I need to think positive about it.

I had quit drinking soda, but now I am back to drinking soda.  It is my crack.  I just can't seem to give it up for long.  I wish that I could.  I think that is alot of the reason that I feel bloated.  I guess there is always tomorrow to start not drinking it again...

Everyone have a great night!  Leave me some comments!  I would love to chat with you.  :-)

Lazy Day???

Not a lazy day for me.  I have been cleaning the house all day.  I know there are 6 of us, but how does this house manage to stay so messy all the time?  It is so discouraging  :-(   I have been in such a foul mood today.  I am tired of cleaning and cleaning, and the house just seems to get messier and messier.

I am also up 4 lbs from last weekend.  WTH!  I know that my eating habits have been horrible the last week, but 4 lbs.  Makes me just want to throw in the towel and say screw it!

I didn't walk today, but I just didn't feel up to it.  I know that I need to walk if I want to build up my stamina and distance, but I just couldn't muster up the go get 'em.

My posts haven't been that positive lately, but I just haven't been in a positive mood.

I do want to thank everyone for the prayers last week.  My week actually turned out to be a lot better than I thought it was going to be, and the work issues look like they are going to work themselves out!  YIPPEEE! So that is GREAT news!

Toodles.........

Banana split.........

I just had a banana split and it was DELICIOUS!  Should I have had it, no-definitely not.  But the girls wanted ice cream and I just couldn't resist.  No willpower, remember!  :-(

My eating was way off track today.  So far off track that I am not even going to write down what I ate.  It was that bad.  I bet I have gained a couple of pounds the last couple of days, and it is all MY fault.  This sucks.  I should be more focused.

I just don't know what is wrong with me.  I can't seem to lose any weight anymore.  I am just stuck in a funk and I am not sure what it is going to take to get me out of it.

I had to drive to Oak Ridge (about an hour and forty five minutes from here) today for a mandatory OWCP appointment. It went better than I expected, and I am hoping that the results will be sufficient for DOL.  The Dr. was a hoot.

I still have an issue going on at work, and I should hopefully be done with it tomorrow, so keep those prayers coming my way.  They are greatly appreciated!

Alexis and I have a therapy appointment this evening, so no walking on my schedule for the day.  I would like to get my mile in but that just isn't going to happen.  We probably won't be home until at least 10:00 tonight.  UGH!  I hate long days like today.  But the appointments are needed, so suck it up buttercup!

I found out today that there is a 5K walk in my county next month (May 11th) so I am hoping that I will be able to participate in that. I just need to get my distance up.

Well, I better get off of here and start getting everyone ready to go.

Toodles......

What we in KY call a "wasper"....

Yeah, that's right.  I said it.  Wasper.  Not wasp, wasper.  That is what my four year old was calling a wasp a little bit ago.  WHERE did she get that term you ask?  From my mom of course!  lol  I referred to the little devils as waspers until I was in high school and someone corrected me.  Wasper sounds better, but I guess to be publicly correct, we have to go with wasp.



I have killed a dozen of these little suckers in my house this week.  Where are they all coming from?  Wherever it is, I wish they would go back!

I had two juices today, and of course I did not have a healthy lunch.  I think I am just going to have to give up on the fact that lunch is going to get me every time!  Darn you lunch!

Lily and I walked a mile.  It was so pretty outside.  Then she rode her bike for a little bit.  When I had her come in the  house she started this annoying crying/whining because she didn't want to come in.  And yes, 5 minutes later, she is still doing it.  I think that she needs a nap!

I was going to make the juice for tomorrow, but the fridge is bare.  I called Beau to ask him to pick up some fruits and veggies and he left his phone on the desk, so that is a no go.  So for the first time in almost 3 weeks, we may not have juice tomorrow.  I am not sure how I feel about that......

Still some issues going on at work that I need your prayers on.  Just say a little prayer for me when you have time!  God knows my needs!  Thanks all!

Arby's may be my downfall...

That is what I need to start telling myself every morning.  I feel like such a loser!  :-(

Did I stick to the juice for today.  You know that I didn't.  I had Arby's for lunch.  Doug (the gentleman that I work with) had Arby's today.  We usually don't eat lunch together, but we did today.  Turkey, ranch and bacon sandwich with curly fries.  Yep.  That is what we had.

I don't know if I will ever be able to do the juice fast correctly again.  I just don't stick to it.  I need to man up!  Or should I say woman up?  and just do it.   I need to quit the whiny and crying and just do it!




I did walk a mile today, so that is a plus.  Again, I need to start walking a longer distance, but I just get so tired and bored by myself (all in my head obviously).

Well, off to have a juice for dinner.  At least I can half-ass this juice thing without a hitch....

Willpower...

Willpower is the inner strength that enables you to make decisions and carry them out. It gives you the strength to take action and perform tasks and plans, despite inner resistance, discomfort, laziness or difficulties.

When there is willpower, there is firmness, decisiveness, determination, assertiveness, resolution, persistence, and the power of pushing yourself towards goals and achievements.

With this skill developed, you are in a better position to overcome procrastination and laziness, focus on what you are doing, and avoid unhealthy or unreasonable temptations.

This is the definition that I found on willpower.  I obviously do not have any willpower. :'(  I broke my juice fast yet again today.  I have drank 2 juices (one for breakfast and one for lunch) but I have also had 2 tuna sandwiches and a little bowl of chips.  WHY can't I just do it this time?  It is so frustrating.  And the only thing I can blame it on is my willpower.  I am not starving, I don't have to have that food, but I just can't not eat it.  

I have been so depressed today.  I have been in bed ALL day.  Just laying there.  Dozing in and out of sleep.   I am sure that it is a pretty day outside, but I have not, and at this point, will not be going out to enjoy it.

My face is acting up again.  I had mentioned in an earlier post that I have seborrheic dermatitis.  I have a medicated lotion that I am supposed to use twice a day.  Well, my face got better and I started slacking using it.  Now my face is all dry and scaly (gross I know) again.  WTH is wrong with me?  Why can't I just do what I need to do?

As you can tell, I am not in a positive mood today.  :'(  I need to get over it.  I need to be praying that God give me strength to do the things in  my life that I need to do.  Actually, I think that I am going to go do that now.

Toodles....  

This makes me wonder.........................

Still feeling like a loser....

What did I do yesterday?  I stopped and got ANOTHER calzone.  Not that getting one the day before wasn't bad enough, but I did it again.  Mushrooms, pepperoni, onions, peppers.  That is what I had in it.  It was yummy, but so no worth it afterward.

I DID walk yesterday, so that is at least a plus.  I wish that I could walk longer but that just isn't going to happen right now.  I am not sure if I can't because of my body or because of my head.  One of them is telling me not to go any further, and I need to figure out which one that it is.

I am hoping to walk today.  Hubster is at work and I am here with the kiddos so I need to wait until he gets home before I go.  They aren't old enough to be left alone, and they are arguing and aggravating each other today, so it wouldn't be a good day to leave them alone even if I could.

I had a juice for breakfast, and it was pretty sweet.  I don't think I know that we are not putting enough veggies in there.  For the most part, the drinks should be 80%/20%.  80% veggies and 20% fruit and I think we have our ratio backwards (but these do taste better-lol).

I am like a broken record, but I am going to try to do the 10 day fast again.  I start and fail, but this time I am really going to try.  I gained 3 lbs over the last 2 weeks-I think.  I can't stand it.  Why do I keep gaining?  I guess the answer includes those stupid calzones I keep eating.  :-(

Wish me luck and keep me in your prayers!  Still some things going on at work that really has me down!